Lord, I pray that I'm eligible for the student loan forgiveness. 

Biden made the announcement and I have no clue if I'm a part of the eligibility group. 

Fingers crossed s 

Started the new job last week and it’s been wild. I’ve been so busy that I can’t even come up for air. 

The first week I really struggled. It was crazy busy, a bit unorganized and my manager kept bugging me. S/he wants to make sure I’m “happy” and yet I find him/her a little over bearing. I also dreaded heading back to the office. 

Week two, still crazy but I’m starting to get the gist of things. 

Though it’s crazy, I’m happy. Everyone is nice, not saying there aren’t problem children but for the most part it’s good. 

The salary is a tad bit lower than I wanted, $105k a year, however it’s still doable. Take home I’m estimating $2500-2700 bi-weekly. Benefits, medical I’m paying less $90 a month, there’s a 50% 401(k) match up to 6%, and the company contributes annually to your HSA. Benefits kicks in day one. I also have my own parking space, and lunch is provided daily. 

I’m looking forward to getting back on a budget.

lastly my kitchen is still a mess 

Looks like I’m just going to go with Home Depot on the cabinets. People are t showing nor are they responding. I’m not sure what is going on but this is really frustrating. 

I applied for one of their credit cards, it’s interest free for six months. So I’ll buy the cabinets and pay cash to have installed. 

I started the new job today. It was great but I’m depressed. I realize I don’t want to work and I’m in no shape or form to even consider this option. I can just beat myself up with all the financial mistakes I’ve made. I hate it! 

I hope I get out of this depression mode real soon, I have no clue what I need to do at this moment. I haven't been depressed in a long time. Thankfully I'm not having suicidal thoughts, so I guess that's a good thing 

I’ve been bummed about going back into the office but I’m also excited about the income I’ll receive. 

Tuesday I start the new job. In the middle of all that I finally got one of  the calls I wanted and landed a contract for $2500 a month. 

Had I got this call prior to being offered the job, I would not have taken the job that is paying the $105k a year. But God works in mysterious ways. 

I was hesitant about letting the new client know I’d taken another role but decided to do so. My conscious was nudging at me. Anyway it worked out, they still want my services and all I can think about it goodbye student loans. 

Leading up to my new job, I decluttered my house with the exception of the kitchen and living room. My kitchen cabinet (sink) finally collapsed, others are on its way. It’s been hell trying to get them replaced. I finally decided to just go with Home Depot. Yes it will be a bit more expensive but guess what? It will be done. I’m finding that Independent contractors either don’t call back, don’t show up, when they do show its radio silence afterwards, or its a combination of everything. Honestly I’m overwhelmed by it. Never thought that trying to replace cabinets would be so difficult.