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Wish I had known

December 25th, 2007 at 05:12 pm

If I had known what I know now, things would have been different. For starters, I would have told my parents about being molested; I would have learned to love myself first.

Thinking back on it I think my shopping and wanted the life of others was a healing (not a healthy one) process for myself.

But life has been much better; after two failed suicide attempts I realized that my life and the way I choose to live it will be my happiness.

I have also learned that I am unique and that if I continue to compare myself to others it will definitely be self-destruction.

From a financial aspect I have learned that if I am happy with my self I am also happy with what I have (therefore spending less and saving more) it is just an amazing feeling

This year has been a blessing; this is the first time in my life that I can say I am truly happy; in addition, if I had known that simply talking about my situations (as I do here) is really more helpful than harmful. Not only has blogging helped me financially but mentally, emotionally and physically as well

These are things I wish I had known when I was young and foolish

15 Responses to “Wish I had known”

  1. madhaus90 Says:

    As a therapist in my previous life (I'm a SAHM to four kids now), I am glad that you learned these lessons while you are still young. May your journey to health and happiness continue! Being open about your experience here might help others here get to the root of some of their spending issues. happy new year!

  2. Amber Says:

    thanks a bunch, that is what I was hoping for
    Happy New Year

  3. Maismom Says:

    I'm glad you're happy now. And I truly understand that disclosing your feelings to others can be difficult. I could not talk to anybody about my true feelings when I was not happy because I was too sad, angry and miserable to even talk about how I felt. It took time, a long time, for me to gain self-esteem and feeling happy about myself. It's a long learning process, and I'm glad I have experienced it because I think I am living a better life now.

    Merry Christmas, and have a very Happy New Year.

  4. Ima saver Says:

    Hope you have a great 2008!!

  5. nance Says:

    Sounds like you are doing well. Congratulations on coming to terms with the past, and having a positive attitude or the future.
    You share a similar history to my son, who has just gotten his life together in the past couple of years.
    Hope your life just keeps getting better and better.

  6. fern Says:

    I think you've learned some good lessons in life already that some people never figure out. I'm glad you are feeling so much better and i'm glad the people on this forum could play a small role in that.

  7. koppur Says:

    You're such a FAB person sunshine...WE all love you! *hugs*

  8. always_sunny Says:

    I am glad you are doing better now and stronger. Have a great new year!

  9. terri77 Says:

    I don't know how anyone could not love you, especially yourself!

    I love reading your blogs, I always look for them. You're just a great lady and I look forward to reading more from you.

  10. Amber Says:

    Thanks for all the kind words, they always help

  11. Broken Arrow Says:

    Wow. I can't I missed this entry for so long.

    I am very glad that things are much better for you now.

  12. Amber Says:

    Thanks BA

  13. moi aussi Says:

    I am glad you are doing so much better now.

  14. HelpMeFriend Says:

    I know that you went through some rough times in your youth, going through it myself.
    If you can go on living with that pain, congrats.
    I know that you did not really want to leave this world, since you didn't, but I want you to know NOW that you are needed.
    Someone in this world needs you to live, even me.
    If you were gone, no one would know your story, no one would hear your pain and prevent it from their child, and no one would be blessed with your smile.
    I hope you still smile at yourself everyday. It's not for anyone else but for you.

  15. Amber Says:

    helpmefriend, thanks for your post it reaaly helps Smile

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