Well I'm back home from my mini vacation which on one end of the spectrum was wonderful because I wasn't home but on the other end horrible because I replayed my Mother's words over and over in my head.
When I told one of my BF what she had said she starting crying. I've read some material which said that most people who make hurtful comments are angry/hurt themselves which I pretty much figured myself about my mother. I realized that she is so consumed with my dad's unhappiness and hers that she makes everyone else unhappy. Every morning and night I hear her say "M you're going to suffer" referring to my dad. Once I was up about 2 a.m. and she was talking in her asleep saying "M y you're going to suffer" once I asked why do you say that every day and she never responded. Mind you my parents have been divorced now for 30+ years and since I can remember she has been consumed with him, asking questions and no matter what the conversation was it always ends up back to my dad. I believe she really did not want a divorce but she claims it was the best thing that ever happened.
I think I'm going to seek some counseling to help me deal with the rejection. Today I'm going to look at a place, I also have a call into one of my friends who was planning on renting her place so we will see
Well I'm back
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