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February 12th, 2012 at 12:33 pm

Whoooo I sympathize with anyone who moves, it is a lot of work. I woke up this morning and said I was taking my shoes and most of my clothes to the new place.

I notice that the minute I came out of my room with boxes, my mother who was talking to my uncle, stop dead in her tracks. But I didn't say anything I just kept loading my car up.

Next the BF came by and he had a newspaper but she, my mother, refuse to look at it because she feels like, I think, I'm going to be mad. All I can say is oh boy. I think she thinks I am hiding the paper because last week she did not get it but actually we bought one, never read it and have been driving around with it in my car all week. My mind has been on a number of things (i.e. work, the move, saving money, 2nd job)

Anyhow now I'm ready to leave with my things and when I go outside my mother is sitting in her car with the radio blasting, crying. I did not say one word I got in my car, went to my new place, unpacked came back home, washed a few load and washed my hair.

Now I don't know if she is sad about me moving, mind you she told me to get the $@Frown) out!, sad about something else, in pain or what because her last words to me were "Don't say anything to me, as long as you live don't say anything to me and when you get back, get the ($@;: out my house!" But I am doing just that.

Unfortunately I have a lot of hate for my mother and I'm glad I'm able to admit to that, I think it's part of the healing process but I do think I need a little bit of therapy and plan on seeking a therapist once I move. There a lot of things I'm willing to admit and I think it's making me better

8 Responses to “Moving ”

  1. My English Castle Says:

    Amber--what an emotional day. My heart goes out to you. Sounds like your mom was maybe facing some of her regrets? I wish you all the best and much happiness in your new place!

  2. Looking Forward Says:

    Moving is such a TON of work! Good luck with everything. Do you plan to say goodbye to your mom once you are finally cleared out?

  3. Amber Says:

    Looking Forward, unfortunately I plan on just leaving. It's sad but until she apologizes I won't say one word.

  4. Thrifty Ray Says:

    {{hugs}} I cant imagine what youre experiencing with this...but I do wish you PEACE and happiness in your new place. There is light at the end of the tunnel!

  5. LuckyRobin Says:

    Life is too short to hold onto your anger. Even if you decide not to see her or speak to her again, I hope you find a way to let the anger go. It may take a few years, but it'll be better for your peace of mind and your heart. That being said, I completely understand where you are coming from and realize you are not the one who burned bridges. She is.

  6. Joanne Says:

    Good luck with your move. So sorry for what you are going through. Hopefully, things will get better for you soon. The hurt that you are feeling is very understandable.

  7. Jerry Says:

    It does sound like some distance is needed in this, and I hope that it leads to peace for you and for this relationship. I really feel for you with all of this going on, but it will be really nice to have some insurance of your own place where you can relax a little bit. Good luck!

  8. Amber Says:

    Thanks JerrY

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